who AM i?

taking chances...
opting to be in situations i would normally be terrified to find myself in...
now all seem thrilling...
and compels me forward... higher
towards an unknown evolution.

fuck inhibitions.

all the wonders,
life's simple pleasures..
that i've sheltered myself from
are within my grasp...
and for the first time
i am reaching.
i am realizing the necessity..
the necessity of [you]
[your] mere presence... that fills the cracks
of my heart.. of my being.
and crumbles the armor that surrounds me.

i AM free.

driving just before sunrise

... all i can think
and feel is
you.

your absence stems this emptiness
and immediately
i miss you

it's an engraved ritual.
as are my morning texts telling you so.

... with the crows cawing,
... sweet birds yawning and
the faint echo of humming engines

feels like home. almost.
only you are missing.

4.25.2008 06:00:30 text msg

I

believe.
to persist in this notion
to be awed
in spite of the disappointment.

i dare continue to believe in the best of human kind
when time and time again
my expectations fail me.

i will not compromise.
i will not allow myself to be compromised.
only to be enlightened.

holding out for those.. to prove me right.
holding it together
for when its just one
left.
myself.